Day 5

This will be a brief one. 8.30pm home about to watch a movie with the family, up early for a race tomorrow.

Just wanted to say, I passed the test of the pub tonight and I feel great about it. My 3 best mates joined me at the local bar tonight, these are guys that over the years I've known them there have been very few occasions out of hundreds that we've parted ways sober, except at races, and even then sometimes we cane a few few hard drinks at 10am-ish after a run. This should have been an all night piss-up. I had a Coke Zero and a Lime & Soda. NO alcohol at all, and I felt absolutely fine about it. My friends were confused at first, then quite concerned that I was terminally ill or something. I didn't elaborate on all the details, simply told them I'm going through a 100 day no alcohol detox. They cracked a few jokes about it, I laughed along, then we chatted about other nonsense. Some of them hammered down the beers and left quite tanked.

Ottilie, Adriana, Marius, Me, Colin, Myles

I must admit I felt surprisingly comfortable not drinking. Yes of course I did crave a real drink, a beer with the boys would have been nice, but then I remembered all the things I've been learning through Annie Grace's book and it was ok, I was ok without the alcohol, and I was ok with them drinking around me. What I'm doing is my own choice, my friends understand that, and I'm not going to push what I'm doing on them or try to influence them against alcohol.

Not yet anyway... hahaha. (Evil laugh)

All in all, another good day Alcohol Free! Another day, another step closer to the light beyond this manipulative fog of alcoholism.

Anyway, my dinner's getting cold and the movie's starting.