Lazy ass!

So, I'm going through this dilemma at the moment which is rather frustrating, and confusing...

During the day while I sit at my desk at work, making like I'm working, I'm constantly thinking about running. It's kind of like an addiction of sorts; I think about it, I read running related articles on various running websites and Facebook pages, I check the online schedules for forthcoming road and trail running races, and when I find a nice race I book a spot. For the first three quarters of the day I wish I could just go out and run, and I look forward to going for a run.

But, by the end of the day, after a long tedious day of parking on my arse in front of my computer, I go home and that desire to run all day is gone. I no longer have the desire or inclination to go and run, or exercise. Like yesterday, all day I looked forward to going to the gym for a workout and a good run on the treadmill. By the time I got home I was knackered and hungry, and the prospect of staying home and relaxing with a few whiskeys just seemed more appealing, so I caved, sat in front of my computer and got merrily drunk on a few too many Vat 69's.

Compounding the problem is the fact that for over two weeks I've done zero exercise, because two weeks ago I got the flu and until now I'm still recovering with the sniffles and the odd cough. True to experience, when we don't exercise for a while we do get lazy and getting back into it just takes a whole load more effort. I did some sit-ups last week, my abs burned for 3 days afterwards!

The plan today, like yesterday, is to hit the gym this evening after work, and as I write this (in my lunch break), the idea of going for that workout and a run is exciting, but I know that by 5pm this afternoon that excitement will be dead, flat, gone, and another evening will be wasted and tomorrow another self-inflicted guilt trip will be hanging over my head, and possibly another hangover!

Oh, btw, Two Oceans entries open tomorrow for next years race! Two Oceans is like my annual goal, this next one I plan to pull off a sub 2 hour time for the 21.1km race, from a group C seeding. For this to happen I need to get out there and train hard, which means actually putting shoes on my feet and going running instead of sitting at home being lazy and packing on the blubber I fought so hard to lose in the last few months!

Maybe this is the psycho-therapy necessary to get that motivation in the right place - writing about it on my blog!

Anyway...

And no I'm not going to run during my lunch break, because I use the time to write my blog, and it's only a half hour break to get some grub down my gullet, and there are no showers here, but most importantly there's no way in hell I'm going to run around Epping! Too many dodgy characters around and I'd be smoking truck fumes all the way!

So lets hope this evening I'll have the "want" to got to the gym.

I'm not making excuses, but the other problem I still have is no decent running shoes. I've been running in my old New Balance shoes which are worn, old and uncomfortable. The Puma's I bought earlier this year are stuffed, completely unwearable. So this does also put me off because running in crap shoes does not instill confidence. It would be so much more encouraging if I could look forward to slipping my feet into a decent pair of comfortable shoes. So I think this year I'm going to bite the bullet and buy myself a new pair for Christmas. Then next year will be a good year for running!

Enough moaning about being poor, lunch break is over.