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{I knew my scale is a bullshitter!}...

Unfortunately I will be breaking one of the will-power cardinal rules tonight - I'm eating dinner within 2 hours of bed! We went to the gym tonight after work and just got back at around 8pm after stopping at the shop on the way home. I've cooked a dinner of steamed green vegetables (peas, broccoli & baby marrows) and smoked haddock. That's it! Just wolfed it down. And I'm now knackered!

Liez and I have both said what an unsatisfying meal this has been, I just put some chilli sauce on my veg and some balsamic vinegar on the fish. It was dull and bland and not very enjoyable, in comparison to my usual culinary masterpieces!

We're going to have to make this diet thing a bit more creative or I fear we may fall off the wagon soon, Liezel before me for sure! (she's already trying to convince herself that a piece of cheese will be ok for an after-dinner snack!) We got a few recipes as part of the will power package, but we need to find a few more of these fat free low carb concoctions that are easy to make and don't require too many strange and expensive ingredients.

Anyway I'm not too worried at this stage, I'm making a huge and concerted effort to eat healthy foods in the right portion sizes and I'm working out hard and playing squash at the gym every day or two and I can feel it's already paying off so if I cause kak and eat something fattening like an avo or banana now and then I'm not gonna slit my wrists with disappointment.

On top of that I'm not even thinking about drinking! Even I'm finding that hard to believe! Yes I do get a craving now and then but for the most part I'm not missing the bottle and quite enjoying life without it. Maybe I'm not such a bad alcoholic as some people have convinced me to believe I am. But time will tell if I'll be on the receiving end of some "I told you so" gloating in the near future or if life will continue happily in the long term without the need to get shit-faced every second day and I can shove it in the crotch of my critics that I'm not an incurable drunk!

Time will tell...

That stop at the shop on the way home from the gym was to buy a new digital bathroom scale. R199 later I got home and tried it out, and lo and fucken behold - I'm almost 2kg lighter than I was this morning! Considering I had quite a weak workout on the squash court this evening and no other exercise today I don't believe that to be true! This morning I was 102kg, this evening I was 100.7kg! I tried it 4 times in different floor locations and exactly the same - 100.7kg!

So what now? Do I leave the original figures my old scale bullshitted me with or do I average down the previous figures by around 1.5kg lower? Because right now that weight-loss graph that William threatened me with is going to have a hell of a dip on the 18th October as if I ran 30km and fasted at the same time!

So anyway - tomorrow's weight loss agenda: banana & strawberry smoothie with fat free yoghurt and Liezel's new "Future Life" meal supplement stuff as a smoothie for breakfast (see how fucken complicated this is getting already!), salad for lunch again, chicken & vegetable stir fry with a little brown rice for dinner, with various fruit and maybe a few Big Mac's in between as snacks. Then gym again in the evening, got a squash court booked at 6.30 if anybody wants to join me.

Tonight I really didn't have the energy to push hard on the squash court. Dunno why, but I really didn't get into it enjoyably. Eventually I let Tammy onto the court with me and we bashed a few balls around lightly.

Well that's all for tonight. Hopefully this natural energy will start coming soon because right now I feel knackered with a belly full of vegetables!

One thing I will say though, I haven't had heartburn in over a week except mildly on Sunday after the roast chicken. That's a good sign because before I was suffering with severe heartburn constantly, sometimes so bad it was excruciating! I normally go through a 48 pack of Rennies in a week and copious volumes of Eno at night. Though I do have a suspicion the half litre of cheap whiskey every 2 days and the crappy fatty food may have had some contributing factors!

Good night okes!